Stress....

...I've got it. In spades.

First, work: Marnita is gone for a few hours to a training class, the phones are going crazy, and everyone on the other end of the phone is an idiot (probably not really, but sure feels like they are!). I can feel myself being short tempered, and it is taking everything I've got to not reach through the phone line and CHOKE the crap out of these folks!

Second, Alan: He is trying so hard to find work, but so far, all the doors keep getting closed in his face. He's not run out of opportunities yet, but so far nothing has panned out. It's not his fault--he's not sitting home all day surfing porn or anything. He is being as productive as he can be. I guess I am not used to this. Greg (my first husband) worked for the same company nearly the whole time we were married, and is still there. I have not had to deal with my significant other being out of work.

And it's not just our household that is affected by this. Alan pays spousal support and still co-owns the house his son's mother lives in. She doesn't work, so there is no income from her. Alan's savings will soon be running out. He is receiving unemployment (a measley $275 a week), but that's it.

I've been doing some figuring. I can support Alan and me on my income for awhile, but not indefinitely. I know Alan is doing his best, and I know he will be working again soon. I know that he will do his very best for all involved. (Alan, I know you read this--just know I love you very much and I have faith in you!)

Amid all of this, I just want to stuff my face. I am trying to find other ways to cope (like writing this blog entry). But the urge to go overdose on a bag of Dove chocolate is very strong! Luckily for me I can't leave the office today, or else I'd be up the street to Walgreens making my purchase!

I just had to get this out--thank God for this blog!